When there is everything to say, where do you start?
I guess I'll start with the premise of this blog. I have been married for 17 years and much of that time I have "worn the pants" in many ways. There has always been the outward appearance of my husband being the leader of our family but in reality, he was deferring to me in almost everything. There are many reasons for this and I'll try to work through those in successive posts in the coming weeks.
I happened upon the concept of an Alpha male, Game etc. through my interest in economics blogs of all things. I guess my initial contact with these ideas probably came from the blog Vox Day, which later led me to Athol's blog and Alpha Game. I was quick to recognize myself in the women that these blogs describe - and not in a good way. I also recognize that I want my husband to be "Alpha" and lead our family.
The problem is that I have spent 17 years punishing my husband for any Alpha action at all. I can say that I have not been doing this consciously, but I HAVE been doing it. As a result, it seems to me that he now fears me.
There is so much 'splaining to do behind each of the above statements but I am hopeful that I will get the chance to do that and work these things out in my own mind on this blog.
I can not say enough good about you, that you are willing to be introspective and do some thinking into why you are the way you are and why your husband is the way he is and how you can better interact with him to help develop him as a man and a husband. I don't even know you but I am proud of you, as a wife to some guy I don't know either. Good luck and I wish you the best of luck!! :)
ReplyDeleteMy first commentor!!! Thank you for your kind words. I am encouraged by you.
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